Capturing the Best in Ourselves

One day at a time...

OK, true confession time. If you have learned anything from me, you will know that I have grandiose ideas but have trouble with follow through. One of those is my blog. I just have so much trouble with it! I have the idea that I will post every session and write something every day, but it just doesn't happen. Which leads to another problem I have.... perfectionism. For a long time I really didn't think I was a perfectionist. And to be honest, I am really not a true perfectionist, but I want things done a certain way. And if it can't or doesn't happen that way, I just don't do it. I don't want to fail at it. So for my blog, when I really want to post something every day or for every session, and I forget to post one day or I am too busy to post, then I feel really down about it and don't post the next day. Then it snowballs and it is hard for me to start posting again. I guess I get embarrassed about it. This happens in ALL areas of my life. I start something with a really great idea, but when I miss a day or don't do it right the first time, I just stop everything. For instance, our house is always a mess. Because when I think about cleaning a room, I don't think about picking up the toys on the floor. No, I think that if the room will really be clean, the drawers need to be organized and the pictures dusted and I get so involved in that, that a 15 minute straighten goes on for 4 hours. You should see when I clean the kids rooms. I take everything out of their rooms to neatly put it all back in. My husband about has a heart attack every time!!! Needless to say that doesn't happen very often. So, today I had a little conversation with myself. I am going to try to make it through one day at a time. Just try to do today what I can and not worry about if I will continue to do it 50 days from now. Or if I have a good idea today and I do it today, that is great. It was worth it, even if I forget to continue. I am embracing my artistic mind. Trying not to be so hard on myself. So, here is to taking it one day at a time... join me for the ride.